Feelings

 I laughed at myself. What was I doing?

This wasn't supposed to happen. I'd gone over everything countless times. 

I'd spent every moment scrutinizing my thoughts, my feelings. Yet I was still here. And where was here, well nowhere. I'd reached nowhere.
All this time I'd thought I was going forward but really there was no forward. There was only stasis and feelings. Yeah that was it.
The stasis was when your desires were on a standstill. Things weren't going your way. You couldn't get what you want or you didn't achieve what you worked so hard for.
And the feelings were the complete opposite. So in reality we weren't going forward at all. And the reality of life was nothing and nothing was going to happen.
But the feelings we had, they were the only thing worth living for.

Being in a Medical School No One Cares About Part 2

I hated being in Medical School. 

Why didn't anyone believe me?

I disliked the non creativity. I disliked the cramming and most of all I disliked how my parents thought they knew so much better than me. It was annoying. They were annoying.

If they really wanted me to study, maybe they should've let me study a subject of my own choice. Instead of imposing their own thoughts and feelings onto me and doubting me in every way. 

No one could ever do anything in an environment like this. 

That's why I had to do everything to get out of here. 

But that would require me to actually pass Medical School. 

Mistakes

The mistakes we make. 

Does it really matter how much we hurt someone to get what we want.

The people who do get what they want. Everytime. They're the narcissists, aren't they?

Because you would have to step over people to get where you want. And when you're alone at the top. 

Are you happy? Are you satisfied?

Or is it just that the view is better from the top?